sigh. quarrels arise again. this time is really serious. the scoldings and vulgarities from him keep flashing in my mind. i didnt wan to cry, i wanted to be strong. but somehow it wasnt easy. the thought of him accusing me makes me feel so... sigh. but the fact is i really never contact him alr. he didnt believe wad i said. he tinks that i bluffing him like one 3 yrs old kid. so how can i prove myself? ='( the msg that i've sent out yet to receive a reply from baby. he's so angry now, yes i know all this reaction was because he loves me too much. sigh. but wad ever i say he dun blif me ......................... perhaps i'm not a gf, i couldnt give him the secure.

i love you mummy!